Bittersweet Candy Bowl

@Lark Does he affect choices that you make, or actively speak out and actually take over your consciousness? Also, new page

I”M DRAWING A FREAKIN BLANK ON THIS PAPER!!!!! Not even my research is good. I’ve never done anything like this before. I’m about to break down from this!!

We are our own bittersweet candy bowl

This place needs a theme…….

@ sammy Damn, and it’s DID, not schizophrenia, right?

@ Light I thought you were starting to spout some fantasy crap. It’s difficult to tell with some people. Sorry.

We know the other exists but we can’t hear the others thoughts. He takes full control and i have to sit and watch and hear what happens, i assume the same for him. somethimes i can feel him, like he’s just benith my skin but this is rare

Fuckin calm down, Drakes, and DON’T FUCKING PANIC. Make an outline of everything you need: introduction, arguments, conclusion. And DON’T FUCKING PANIC. Divide your arguments into at least three parts, Hell, I already gave some suggestions for that.

Oh, and DON’T FUCKING PANIC.

Definitely. There are marked differences , but they are quite similar, so I can’t blame the confusion. How long have the different personalities manifested themselves.

@Lark That sounds horrible I have only ever had an alternative “me” manifest itself like that, and it wasn’t altogether unpleasant, but it wasn’t exactly welcome either.

What is this VIncy, Airplane?

Light and Dark love to argue. I just thought “Like an old married couple.” and they yelled at me.

TOO late for panicking!! i have no idea what i’m doing on this?!

@sammy It’s just one and he first took control ten years ago

Hysterical people don’t slap themselves, you know.

I would love to be proved wrong on that though.

Hey, I have moments like that too, light. I make some comment, and another part of me will go “Shut Up”. I have a generous dollop of MPD on the side of my Schizo, lucky me ¬-¬

Damn, Dr. Draix, are you still in high school? Then relax.

Hahahahaha thatwould be funny Vincy

Are you sure it’s schizophrenia? That stuff manifests around 20.

It definitely is. i was diagnosed at age seven under circumstances I’d rather not talk about.

As i said,never said it was schizophrenia

I guess MPD but I know what they want me to do and can hear them. But not their thoughts.

@ sammy Okay, I won’t press any further. But that sucks.

@ Lark Right. I saw. Sorry for the confusion. That also really sucks.

@ Light Have you seen a doctor?

Nope. These are just my personal observations.

You never give me your money
You only give me your medication
And in the middle of procrasturbation
I break doooown

Truer words were never spoken, jerk ^_^

i am still in high school, working on a college level assignment thats due tomorrow morning that i havent started on and didnt know about until last night/this morning.

This is why we pay attention in class, ins’t it, Draixen? Condescending comments are fun

Hear is an old posting i did about him in a thred thats way down there now:

I wish i was jokeing but i’m not. Me and him know the other exists and when he takes hold i feel as if i’m watching someone else do those things and i can’t stop them, although there are times when i don’t want to stop him. My shrink thinks he is my repressed past. There are huge holes in my memory from 4th grade down. The aredocters think i repressed those memorys and they kinda formed there own person. So he’s just like me but a much bigger asshole. I dont think the docters are completly right. If they were then i think he would be like a voice in my head, but i don’t hear him and i don’t think he hears me. He’s not arund often but some things can trigger him. I don’t know what the triggers are so i can’t realy avoid them. But they are not many so i don’t worry to much. He’s much bolder on the internet then in real life. Usualy he just acts anti-socal and relly depressed but on here and other places he can be very childish. He usualy only pops up about once a month and not for long but thats not a constant. I know this is hard to beleive but my friends thought that to, but now they try to aviod me on those days. Hopefuly we won’t be seeing much of him. befor you ask the corner started with me, some ways down he took over but then i took back contol but kept posting, so most of it was me, i will admit. We are what we are, even if people don’t belive. And again, sorry for derailing

Well, if you’ve never done anything like it before, feel free to suck. And any event that is exclusive to school is NOT worth breaking down over. Are your parents really strict?

I remember that, lark. I also have enormous gaps in my memory, one of which apparently pertained to a happy relationship of which, of course, i can remember nothing ¬-¬

“College-level” doesn’t mean shit. Professors tell you exactly what they want from you and all you have to do is write that to the best of your abilities, because this is the society that lowered the bar of mediocrity itself to accept all the special little snowflakes.

And that’s my cue to start drinking again. I’ll try not to choke on this fucking swill I have foisted upon myself.

@Lark I remember seeing that post.
I also remember typing that I believe you. Still do.

Teaching has lowered the bar subbstancly and it is no longer fair to those of us who can aactuly think

What are you talking about? It makes it super easy! Unless you are above a certain line.

Hahahaha man, I balk sometimes at college level stuff and the complete lowering of standards. You shouldn’t be able to pass with an A when your scores reflect a C. Curving is a detestable bane that I ride like an addicted junky because I need that awesome GPA for vet school.

You know, once you have that degree, what does it really matter sometimes? Many self-taught people have excelled in the world because they are damn good at what they do.

Equality is, in this case, a curse, as Jerk says. The education system has adjusted itself to the needs of the masses and, sadly, the masses are pretty stupid.

I found some of that shit so stupid it was depressing

I hated vocabulary. I had already been using all of those words daily since I was ten! I think I just found myself too “smart” to apply myself. It’s really quite a load of pretentious crap on my part.

Use it while you can, or you’ll end up like me, graduated and still can’t spell

shoot me now.

You’ll live Draixen

@ Draixen No. Get off the computer and get it done, Dr. Draix.

it’s on the computer though

Get off the part of the computer with the internets.

Come back to us when you’re done, though. I like you.

i have to use the internet for sources, once i find a topic i can understand

HNNNNG

Turn off all tabs involving communication or entertainment and don’t get back on until it’s done. This is common sense stuff, Drakes, just force yourself to do it.

Out of College, money spent
See no future, pay no rent
All the moneys gone, no where to go…

I forgot how depressing some Beatles’ songs are.

That’s beautiful. Mostly because I haven’t gone to college yet and all signs are telling me not to.

I got an A on my First Quarter Test friday.

@ Sean: That song was completely awesome on so many levels, bro. It was recorded after Let It Be but released before, so the album Abbey Road should be the real legitimate conclusion to The Beatles career, and that song was probably the only one in which every damn one of them sang a different part. The were completely in sync for the last time in history and that song, though surrounded by examples of how they would branch their careers, is the focal point of the album for me. In fact, it’s part of a series called the “Golden Slumbers Suite.”

Also, I am so stoked that I have found a way to ingest this alcohol without puking.

@ Scotch: Do you have any idea how much less people without degrees end up making? Even if it’s just a two-year program, that still gives you an advantage over people with none at all.

HNNNNNG sorry, but I’ve had to make this argument to my two previous girlfriends.

Not Jessie though. She graduated before I did and she’s younger than me. <3

This is about a comment form awhile ago. I already stated out theme once. It is my comment on this page also, Woot!. found my computer! LOD you are alone in your world once more. This sight looks much better on a computer