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7. sore as fuck from working past quitting time, but I have the day off tomorrow!

8. I just did nothing for 14 hours.

8, worked out and just relaxed today.

9/10

Found a bunch of papers I tought I had lost + delicious ice cappuccino

(yesterday was 6/10 the day before it 4/10 aand the day before that was 9/10. random hyper and depression days )

6/10 so far, pretty damn neutral. Mind you, I just woke up...

1/10 I woke up and had a feeling of utter dread like something bad is going to happen. I'm to the point where I won't leave my bedroom, I am scared s***less.

4/10 I just got another letter from some Association called "The Student Ambassador Program" or something like that, for the 100th time about going over to France,Italy, and Greece. :l You think they would quit sending it after the 8th time i turned them down in the 3rd grade.

9/10. I drove around and bought a radar detector from AutoZone with a $10 rebate. I drove around some more to test the radar detector and it works wonderfully. $40 well spent, for sure! Then grabbing some sushi with my girlfriend and her friends later tonight.

2/10

So there was a message on the fridge when I got home from work that the GF was back in the hospital emergency room ("back" because she had a real nasty stomach flu last week, so I figured it was that). I made my way over there and asked the nurse which room she was in. The nurse told me she was moved to the psych ward. Well fuck.

All possible scenarios started flying through my head; Did she relapse (former cutter)? Did her meds get the better of her (she had told me recently that she feels like her Celexa anti-depressants were messing with her thought process and making her paranoid and overly anxious to the point where having a panic attack was likely)? Did she overdose/forget a dose?

I made my way over to the psych ward and they told me she back in for treatment (she's been there twice already) and that I couldn't see her for 3 more days as part of an isolation thing in their odd-ball program. Fucking really? REALLY!? The nurse, however, let me see her for about 5 minutes. It felt so good to hold her in my arms, I was barely able to contain myself. She said she was okay and that she just needs get her mind straight with the meds and find ways to cope. I was ready to start bawling, but I wanted to keep my "resolute pillar of strength" facade for her sake. This was also when I wanted to just tell her everything on my mind and all the shit I'm worried about and just get it all out in the open, but it wasn't the time or the place (tried to get a hold of her yesterday, but turns out she was already admitted into the ward). So we bid farewell and I walked back to the car. Held it together until I got to the car and pretty much started sobbing.

That was about an hour ago. I love her with all my heart, I just want us to be a happy couple without all this bullshit mind-fuck medication we're dealing with. Is that too much to ask for?

Oh man, so sorry to hear about your girlfriend. Yeah, I would agree now isn't the time to unload your problems on her.

In the interest of remaining on-topic: my day so far has been 6.5 out of 10. I really didn't do much of note today, but tonight I'm off to see K-9 the Pats.

5/10. Dad's pissed, makin' everyone feel bad. Jesus Christ, just leave us out of it if you're having a shitty day. I mean, we don't really know what you're going through at work, and I'd prefer not knowing. So please, don't bring it home with you. The only thing that made this day better:



My Marmit Super Festival Godzilla figure came in the mail today, surprisingly much quicker than it was supposed to. Yay!

Note: This is not my picture.

This post has been edited by Giygas: 31 December 2011 - 12:19 AM

7 played super smash bros brawl watched a movie and read a comic "two kinds" but im sick

2/10 hit my thumb agaisnt a ceiling fan on high

9/10 Just got back from a New Years Party.

Too bad they ended it because of a stupid reason, oh well, their lost.

8/10
Got back from new years party. Had bunches of fun and hung out with friends. Over all pretty good day.

Nik, on 01 January 2012 - 07:46 AM, said:

I lol'd at your avatar.

9/10 for me. Consumed booze and sushi, then more booze, played Munchkins, etc.

Yesterday was a horrible day for me, probably somewhere around a two or a one, but now I'm feeling alright because I slept in until two and now I'm playing Portal 2 again, so, maybe a six.

normal day 6

8

Got to sleep in this morning. Got to wear my brand new Packers jersey for the game today. HUGE bonehead mistakes during the first quarter of the game, but they were quickly rectified. Very exciting game which ended in a Packers victory! The day at work has gone by quickly, but is constantly being marred by pictures of Republican candidates that I don't much care about. And I have the next morning off, which will be spend with my fiancee, doing some housework and shopping. After tomorrow, I get the next three evenings off, which is really freaking cool

3 couldn't visit my little woman in the psych ward because of work and the boss wants me to work tomorrow too. Called my little lady and she was upset because she called worked and they laid her off because they are concerned about her dependability, being in the hospital and whatnot. She could sue them for that...

1. My last family member died this morning, It was my Grandfather that I use to spend most of my time with when I was younge before he went back to Russia. I am the last of my familys blood line right now :l

9/10
Awesome day, date went pretty damn good and Mission Impossible was a fun watch.

4/10 Had to go back to school with a cold...

4

Got a shit ton of pre-calculus homework, and I now found out that there are going to be quizzes every pre-calc class my teacher does not teach lessons, he gives an example then expects us to do the work without any help

I'm also falling behind in some classes, and due to a 4-5 page research paper for govt. I wish the school year would hurry up and finish with less bull shit stuff that is forced on our plate

Does not help that this girl who was being a bitch to me yesterday realized her mistake and is now nice. what the fuck is wrong with her?

I seem to be getting into a depressive rut as well

Argh.

5 Had to work because my boss asked if I was available. I have homework to finish and I wanted to visit my woman in the ward, but the boss is too intimidating to turn down. Started at 8am, had no energy, but luckily I was just covering for someone because they had a new planogram for the coolers around the city that he had to take care of (coolers are a huge pain in the ass to fill, so yay for no coolers!). Unfortunately when I was at my last stop at a Superstore around 2, I got splashed with cream soda because I cut too deep into the shrink wrap that was on the first pallet I grabbed to work on. It looked like a pissed my pants and my shirt, was sticky too and cleaning up put me 30 minutes behind schedule. Didn't get home until a little after 5

1/10, Only got 1 hour of sleep, have no water in my house, no breakfast, no money on my lunch card, and I have school in 30 mins.....I am tried, hungry, and thirsty.




1/10 again and day isnt even over. Another death in the family, well...4 more dead...Car crash. Weird time of year to see 5 people go so soon, thinking about leaving BCB for some time I am start to feel depressed and can only lead to drama which I dont want to give to anyone.

This post has been edited by iRussisch: 06 January 2012 - 02:01 AM

So far an 4 because schools in 3 mins

2/10, Got yelled at for my grades due to none of them being B's but like 4 D's and 2 C's. I just dont care much anymore I worry.

1/10
Got cuts on my eye bone, foot, and hand

Day was 9/10, but now that it's night I'm at 4/10.

started at a 9, but it's turning into a 5 due to being at work AND how the Packers are playing right now

started 4 went to 8

3/10.

Had to go to the doctor today because my parents final found out that I had memory loss. Some how this lead to my doctor thinking I have sexual frustration and need some therapy, I'm still a virgin and Asexual :l


I hate people.

I would say a 8/10 went to a comedy club with some friends for free (give away tickets are awesome) and got to hang around the girlfriend too. Win-win

0/10. I bought an extended two year warranty for my laptop back in May of 2010. The battery needs to be replaced, because it's crapping out when according to my laptop, it's perfectly fine. However, Dell's shitty site claims that it expired last year. I called technical support, and guess what the stupid guy does? He straight out lies to me. "We don't sell laptops through Staples." Bullshit! I want to strangle somebody right now.

3/10

My laptop strangely still had me logged in when I shut it off last night, and when it was not working I manually shut it off and now it's stuck in a restart to error boot screen loop I think it is now so overcome by viruses I could not do crap about that it will be forever stuck like that, like it is stuck in the twilight zone

Fortunately, I will be getting a new laptop soon because my laptop was crapping out

The only thing I'm worried about is rex thinking I'm mad at him when i'm not

3/10. My ex was the substitute for one of my classes today and I ended up hiding in the back crying, and leaving with tears in my eyes because he used to be such a good friend to me and we had a very special relationship, and I see everyone around him adoring him as he ignores me. And every time things almost seem like they could return to some sort of normalcy between the two of us, something shitty happens to make everything overly dramatic for no reason whatsoever.

The current boyfriend tried to be a comfort but ended up just asking me when we are going to perform our next sexual act. So that kind of sucked. My best friend for the most part ignored me as all of this occurred.

But I just jammed on piano/tried to learn guitar for a while, and I got all my shit done, and today is the first day of losing weight, so with those goals in mind to improve myself I feel better .

10/10.

Fucking pissed.

So my dad had a bad cold today and decided to come home with his laptop to take a certification exam online. When he couldn't connect to the internet via wireless, he somehow thought it would be a really good idea to pull out the entire computer desk so as to get behind and hook up with a network cable. Except there is basically nothing behind the desk, all the computer equipment is under the desk within easy reach!! Long story short, he broke the back panel of the desk so that the whole thing was caving in. I had to remove all the equipment, help him put the panel back into position, and then set everything up again. And the worst part? Two minutes after wrecking the desk, he figured out the wireless switch on his laptop simply wasn't turned on. FUCK, this could have been solved within seconds had he not been so addled in the head as to move a desk even I can't move by myself. How he even passed his stupid exam, I don't know.

Man, fucking waste of two hours. Got a bump on my head out of it too. Now I'm self-medicating with potato chips. So yeah, let's go with the flow and say my day was 3/10. Although I do wonder if I get pissed this easily, how I'd be able to handle any future kids I might have. I mean, kids are inevitably making messes which you then have to clean up. Man, I really feel for Chris now.

2/10

I think i hbaven't had a worse day in quite som time.

The only reason it's not 1 it's because I'm still breathing and I had breakfast.

8/10 A little conflicted

I've been covering a sick co-worker's shifts Monday and today and he just told me the doctors say he's got a virus so they can't actually do anything about it, so I gotta cover his shift tomorrow and probably Thursday. Sure, it's a pain in the ass, but it's money in the bank! It's just a 6 days straight feels like a bit much with school just starting.

The copy of Mega Man X2 I got from eBay came in today, super happy about that.

5. woke up. no clean underwear went back to sleep and did nothing.

Was getting myself a glass of OJ. Shaking the bottle so that the pulp is evenly distributed. The entire container explodes. I get drenched in the juice, my clothes and skin reek of citrus, I taste like an orange, and feel oh so sticky.

I love orange juice.

10/10.

3/10.
I'm in the middle of some mid winter monotony, it's looking to be kind of a joyless January. You might say it's new year negativity, or new beginning blues. Perhaps it's just snow-season sorrow, mixed with a slight freezing cold funk.
...I'll stop now.

Also, I lost a wristband I've been wearing for years. That didn't do much to improve my mood.

1/10


"Brain Damage"

'Nuff Said man...Feels bad, means nothing yet though

8/10 So, I guess this will be the last time I say awesome day due to girlfriend. Cause that is getting repetitive now. I guess I will say if anything major comes up.

iRussisch, on 16 January 2012 - 03:13 AM, said:

Well, geez I don't blame you from what I read about you 1/10 and 2/10 days . Life is just...tough. And let's face it: people are just naturally selfish creatures and can't really truly understand your pain...but it certainly helps when someone is willing to REALLY listen to you (at least it is for me...everyone is different). Your welcome to chat with me if you want and find a lack of outlet. I know I barely know you but I always feel this desire to help people...I think I just know what it felt like in high school and want to do what I can to help others going through shit too

I would say an 8. I think I may have screwed up my back a bit..but the fate of that is uncertain. I am, however, going climbing tomorrow and I don't really have any other obligations but to work on my thesis. Yay!

Holy shit Russ o_o I'm sorry man...

6/10 for me. Good day, but not great. Spent the entire fucking day working.

8/10

About to make a move on a woman. Some might deem it an awkward situation because we've been friends for like a decade. She might make it seem awkward in her head, but I won't give her enough time to think twice about it. If some mackin' and confessin' fails, then it is time to burn that bridge and move onto other prospects.

Hopefully I'll get the go ahead to do 12 crowns on 3 different patients today. I also have some guy who apparently vomits when anybody puts any instrument or hand in his mouth. Gotta sedate his ass and hope for the best and hopefully not have to clean up his breakfast all over the cubicle...

Oh jeez Russ, Sorry to hear that. I hope you're alright.

4/10 for me, not really such a bad day, but some stuff happened at school that I can't really go into without going into an angry ramble, and will thus omit.