wacko, on 09 November 2011 - 09:51 PM, said:
Ah... you do not mean Toffee by any chance, do you? ^_^
Oh, I, uh, er... What... what gave you that idea? Was it that you read my intro post(s)?
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The actual story is a bit more complicated than that. :unsure: I had an online crush on her for several years, which I never revealed. It was her intelligence that attracted me to her (I'm a sucker for intelligence). There was also the fact that she liked some of the same things as I did (comics and Lord of the Rings especially). One thing I never gave much thought to, though, was physical attraction, especially since neither of us was inclined to share pictures of ourselves on the internet.
For me it's something I can't exactly nail down. There's a lot I appreciate but it just comes down to her as a person. Trying to highlight one quality above all the rest is just impossible for me.
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So yeah, I finally got to meet her. First time I'd actually met someone from the internet. It was a bit awkward at first, especially since I'm a reticent person by nature. She turned out to be a larger person than I'd thought, bigger than me, so not that physically appealing to me. :unsure: Also we didn't seem to click together as well in real life as we did online. Part of that was because I simply didn't know her that well, because she was a rather secretive person online (as was I).
You knew her for years and you guys didn't talk about personal stuff much? :< That's not an accusation, by the way, that's just an "oh s" kind of thing. I mean, it's a shame that it was placed in such a shape because of lack of telling each other stuff. (I was going to say "lack of trust" but that might have been assuming too much)
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Even then, I still wanted to take the chance and get into a relationship with her, but I think she saw that it wouldn't work out, simply because we weren't clicking as well as we'd hoped. She made the excuse of distance being a factor, but I knew that wasn't the real reason. I soon realized, though, that she was probably right, that it was better to break it off right away if it wasn't going to work.
The admirable thing about what you did is when you realized that wasn't the real reason, you didn't get all "accusatory" and say "why did you lie to me!? Can't you tell me the truth!?" You understood what she was trying to get out, and just let it be.
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And I got over it soon enough. At least I could leave with no regrets. I'd admitted the crush, I'd met the girl, and if the relationship didn't work out, well, that's just part of dating. You don't always meet the right person the first time around. And it was definitely an experience that helped me to grow. It was something I needed to do, to learn from.
I'm not necessarily disagreeing this so much as I can't understand this. It's hard to picture life without her, these days. Always something to look forward to, always someone that brightens my day when she shows up (not to say I just use her to make me happy!). I just can't picture not regretting anything. I'd probably find so many faults in what I did and blame it all on myself.
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So yeah, there it is. If I don't have that physical attraction to the person as well as the mental attraction, it probably won't work. It really does have to be the right person for me. I'm kind of picky that way. Judge me as you will, I suppose.
This is gonna sound kinda silly, but if I liked someone I began to think they looked prettier. Sort of like it was an effect. Placing their looks on a pedestal, if you will. Although this person in particular was great-looking to begin with.
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The happy ending (for my crush) is that she did eventually meet someone much more suited to her. She's engaged to him now, and I'm glad it worked out for her. :)
... You're... really mature. Instead of resentful and thinking "that should have been me!" you're genuinely happy for her success. I don't know many people who are like that.
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Well, I'm not really a people person. :unsure: Social interaction has never been my strong suit. I'm always uber-quiet and cautious around people until I get to know them a lot better. I never have any clue what to say to people. Carrying on a conversation with someone always seems awkward and forced to me. It was my crush who had to initiate things with me, because I was so shy and reserved in person. For example, I never would've thought of holding hands with her, since I'm usually one to respect people's personal space. Making out with her was nice though. #^_^#
Amen to the that. I am incredibly shy in person. I have a fair share of friends, and some of 'em always try to get me to talk more. But I imagine I could never have the guts to initiate a hug or hold hands, no matter how much I wanted to show them how much I cared. It's hard, being timid. :<
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So yeah, I had lots to learn, but I can carry that experience into next time. And meanwhile, I can try to improve myself. I've already joined a co-ed soccer team, and met another (platonic) friend from the internet.
You've really got things figured out, huh? I gotta say, you take it really calmly, which is something I envy. You're in no rush for anything and just take stuff as they come. You don't seem bothered about much. I wish I could say the same for me. xD;;