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Story Summary: Starting Over, page posted 11/30/12

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Starting Over — Page 34
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Reader comments

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Comment ID #233450

Also, last page! Now we can finally see what comes after December! One more thing, is she going to sleep early or has she just had a 8-9 hour existential journey? Because if it is the second one, hell that is a lot of thinking!
But really, it wouldn’t make sense for them not to become friends again. If this comic lasts for like another year, and they are still angry at each other, it’s kind of going to suck. I mean, if they fight constantly, it will cease to be a ‘dramedy’ (?) as it were, and just become constant squabbling. And to be honest, no matter how much comic relief there is, it will be unable to resolve the tension because it will not be meaningful to the story and will instead just be filler.
Plus, you guys seem to forget that at the end of “Something Beautiful”, Michael clearly seemed remorseful for what he had done. Hopefully this will be a step in the right direction.
Lastly, because I can not get this out of my head, SHE HAS FREAKING SIDEBURNS! SHE IS A GIRL WITH SIDEBURNS! And no one will be able to convince me otherwise.

Nikita November 30, 2012, 12:00 AM EST.

Comment ID #233451

I’m kind of glad Mike grew a backbone and stood up for what he thought was right but at the same time I kind of dislike the way he handled the situation. :/

supertails19 November 30, 2012, 12:00 AM EST.

Comment ID #233452

I was expecting Zach’s words to come to her again.
Great ending to the flashback! A good sleep always helps ;U;

Pirari November 30, 2012, 12:00 AM EST.

Comment ID #233453

Aw, Lily’s so cute.

Christine November 30, 2012, 12:01 AM EST.

Comment ID #233454

Long story short. Nope.

Glenn November 30, 2012, 12:01 AM EST.

Comment ID #233455

Finaley intermission ends

Profatgamer November 30, 2012, 12:01 AM EST.

Comment ID #233456

…aaaaaaaaand, she’s learned nothing. beautiful.

abowden November 30, 2012, 12:01 AM EST.

Comment ID #233457


I really liked this intermission, I didn’t like it too much at first but, I’m glad I stuck to it and continued reading.

SXR123 November 30, 2012, 12:03 AM EST.

Comment ID #233458

Whelp, Nice final chapter of BCB.

Radial November 30, 2012, 12:04 AM EST.

Comment ID #233459

Oh mah goodness, the poor child! She has no idea what shitstorm will go down!

ultimateZ November 30, 2012, 12:04 AM EST.

Comment ID #233460

Wow, she really wasn’t ready for it.

Subaru November 30, 2012, 12:08 AM EST.

Comment ID #233461

Oh Lucy. That’s literally what helped you sleep at night, wasn’t it? The thought that, whatever it was that he had “wrong” with him was eventually going to just go away like it always did. But things weren’t “like always” and they aren’t like that now. You have a heart-broken Yashy to deal with, on top of struggling through your depression.

And Mike is in no better a situation. He has to come to terms with the fact that Sandy wants him to apologize, even though I believe at this point he still doesn’t believe she deserves it. I hope he doesn’t attempt an apology out of duty to Sandy…either leave her be or come to her with a real apology. And Lucy should exchange the same…they both need to apologize to each other. Lucy isn’t ready yet though. I honestly don’t think she’ll be “ready” for a long, long time.

Ugh, what a slippery slope this is. :c I just want everyone to work out their problems…

Oh God and I just though of when winter break is over for them…can’t imagine what that’ll be like. :/

Yaschiri November 30, 2012, 12:09 AM EST.

Comment ID #233462

Im pretty glad this chapter is over, just because ive been on pins and needles to see whats going on in the present! Mad Lucy

Frodomann1 November 30, 2012, 12:30 AM EST.

Comment ID #233463

I… I don’t want Mike to apologise…
Don’t get me wrong, he handled the situation way way way way way way WAY worse than he could have, but it wasn’t unprovoked at all.
I really like Sandy, but to be honest - how quickly she forgave the girl who gave her boyfriend a bloody nose and abused him time after time kinda actually put me off her a bit :/
Still, I think that’s just Sandy - she’s sweet, easily forgiving.
I really want Mike and Lucy to be friends again, but I think they both need some time - she needs to mature and he needs to cool off.

Dave November 30, 2012, 12:31 AM EST.

Comment ID #233464

Good lord was she wrong

lov/hate/hurt November 30, 2012, 12:32 AM EST.

Comment ID #233465

Maybe he will, come back who knows?

Whatever does Taeshi have in her terrible head that will kill my brain out of anticipation

foreveryoung5 November 30, 2012, 12:43 AM EST.

Comment ID #233467

If you jinx it I will proceed to hurt you…and it will be painful.

Neospector November 30, 2012, 12:49 AM EST.

Comment ID #233468

Like a beaten puppy, he would return.

Shiloh November 30, 2012, 12:54 AM EST.

Comment ID #233470

@ Shiloh
I see what you did there

Nikita November 30, 2012, 12:56 AM EST.

Comment ID #233472

Oh, Lucy, how wrong you are. Long-term verbal and physical abuse is not something you ‘get over’. :unsure: For some reason, I get the feeling that she only believes their relationship is ‘working’ when they’re at each other’s throats. Interesting thought to chew over, but that’s a naive way to go about your life - to think that the way things have been since kindergarten aren’t going to change on the transition to adulthood.

PocketGodPygmy November 30, 2012, 1:02 AM EST.

Comment ID #233473

“Whatever is going on, he will get over it.” Sounds like something Lucy needs to be telling herself…badly. There’s a point when you stretch out a hope so far that it just becomes a delusional despair, no offense to any idealists in here or has-been idealists know as cynics; just trying to be real about the situation.
Come on Lucy, broaden your horizons! Mike might be a great guy, but he’s not the only guy (*cough* Paulo *cough*). You got to ask if beating yourself over Mike is really worth it. Let the pipe-dream go and chase something that’s more within reach.
Stop isolating yourself from the world and put what you got out there! Don’t be afraid to take some hits and feel free to dish out some, without being physical about it, of course. Forget trying to piece your insecurities into something whole and abandon the fort you built around it; rise above and get back to the surface!
The world is waiting…we are waiting!

Blank On Purpose November 30, 2012, 1:12 AM EST.

Comment ID #233474

New chapter incoming! Bring - it - on!

SOGx-ray November 30, 2012, 1:31 AM EST.

Comment ID #233476

i think lucy is just. conflicted. she doesn’t really deserve it because all she does is get nervous and that makes her mad.. pretty normal… so i think once sandy told mike to just not be supportive of Lucy … Mike just sorta died on Lucy … gosh Sandy is a manipulative bleep* really from my point of view

Hell In my Clouds November 30, 2012, 2:11 AM EST.

Comment ID #233477

Man…and for a while there I actually thought she had made some progress. Lucy I’m surprised you haven’t ended it all yet. But remember if you are gona do it do it right down the street not across. Across is just a cry for help.

Fluffy November 30, 2012, 2:31 AM EST.

Comment ID #233478

eh leave isnt the right word. he more or less ran into some ones home smashed **** up with a hammer and than blamed the home owner for his actions

anonymous November 30, 2012, 2:38 AM EST.

Comment ID #233479

Everytime I read this, I have to remind myself that they are still teenagers and not adults. If this was an adult I would say it was time to ditch the people causing the problem and move on. But they aren’t. They are silly little teens and every loss (it doesn’t matter if it is your best friend or a boyfriends) feels like the end of the world. It’s hard to imagine yourself as an island but it can be done. You don’t need to be defined by a relationship but I can see that Lucy does that. Hell, Mike does it.

I really don’t think Mike and Lucy should be friends again. This is a toxic friendship and Lucy needs to learn to stand on her own two feet without someone there to help her. If someone helps her, she can never get stronger.

Remember kids, everyone is and can be an island. You don’t need a significant other to have a life.

Fates November 30, 2012, 3:14 AM EST.

Comment ID #233481

Is it me, or this chapter was absolutely about nothing?

Yan November 30, 2012, 3:37 AM EST.

Comment ID #233482

@Fates Such as it is good advice its still……………..a very depressing way of thinking. You can stand on your own, and you should, but you should lean on others. The saying no man is an island is relevant. I think Lucy should lean on her other friends its not healthy to lean on someone like Mike. Mike’s the kinda guy who is likely to pull back and go “Props are dangerous” :unsure:

Valentine November 30, 2012, 3:56 AM EST.

Comment ID #233483

*Panels 3, 4, 6* ooooh Lucy :( if there was an actual catagory for famous last words……….those would be near the top of the list.

DeathofInk November 30, 2012, 4:06 AM EST.

Comment ID #233485

@ Fates
I used to feel the same way for a long time. I used to think, “You know what, I don’t need anyone else. I’m fine on my own.”
But deep down it hurts to stand alone and it takes a good amount of iron will or the generation of stress to pacify the hurt (some people drink or take substances to pacify the pain they can’t face). Such things would be all well and good, if it were not for the fact that we and these characters live in a world based largely on a social foundation.
We are social creatures and inherently seek out others; it’s our nature to do so. To avoid others or to be avoided is painful in a psychological and physiological way. The key here is not to take things too seriously or over think things, as ironically, most of the characters in BCB do.
@ Valentine
I agree that it is healthy to have people you can trust and lean on, but it becomes dangerous when you develop a complete dependency upon them, like Lucy currently does with Mike. You should be able to stand up for yourself, but you should also have the comfort in knowing that there are those who have your back.
In short, it’s all about balance. The greater the balance you can maintain in yourself and your life, the more likely you’ll have positive experiences. Flirting with extremes can be fun, but it can be dangerous and damaging in the end.

Blank On Purpose November 30, 2012, 4:21 AM EST.

Comment ID #233486

At long last this chapter ends, and I feel like it was a waste. We were teased with the prospect of Jessica/Rachel pov, but instead we got emo Lucy; and I think I’ve made my opinion of emo Lucy clear in the past.
I don’t say this from hate, I love the comic and never miss an update, but this was slow and boring for me. These big “revelations” from Lucy’s view point weren’t that big of thing for me.

?!? November 30, 2012, 4:31 AM EST.

Comment ID #233487

Well. It was very interesting to see things from ither perspectives and as much as I enjoyed this chapter….I am quite relieved and pleased that it is finally over with.

I ….am a Lucy fan. But this chapter made me loose a lot of….something for Lucy.

Akiriuu November 30, 2012, 4:45 AM EST.

Comment ID #233488

Sorry Lucy but not this time. :(

Anon-Anon November 30, 2012, 5:14 AM EST.

Comment ID #233489

Yes! Its over! Now, maybe he’ll come back maybe. But then again this is just a flash back. In the other chaoter she was seen walking back into her house, isolating herself from the world. So I guess for now she can just sleep It out, work it out with someone!! Ugghh… bloody hell I guess we have to wait.

And I shall be here next friday!

what? November 30, 2012, 5:44 AM EST.

Comment ID #233490

Of course he will come back Lucy. You’re still alive, and it bothers him, even though he didn’t seen you between December and his meeting with Sandy.

Consider it a recap. Happens all the time in long anime series. They use whole episode to retell stuff that already happened from someone elses viewpoint, add some plot, and voila. Almost not a recap. Though it is still a recap and it makes people rage a lot.

Island? Pfffff, screw that. I’m on the top of the mountain. On the very top. Did i mention it’s rather pointy mountain and there’s only enough room for one person to stand on the top? And everyone else is lower than me. Only difference is some are lower than the others? Mountains, hell yeah.

Other friends includes:
-Paulo: who’ll more than likely cheer her up with some old fashioned ***-grab. Oh yeah, he had some sort of relationship, screw that as well.
- Hoe… I mean Sue. I think Lucy would either kill herself or her after five minutes of listening to her
- Daisy - because you know, best way to get over Mike is to hang out with someone who’s in successful relationship and still can’t get over Mike
- Well, both have violent outbursts, and Lucy could be some sort of support for Abbey, once Daisy will screw it all and decide to pursue her 50 Shades of Gray Cat ultimate fantasy.
- David - OMG WTF NO

Commander_Zero November 30, 2012, 5:53 AM EST.

Comment ID #233491

I cannot get out of my head, that I can imagine that this is the final chapter. Just savor the words and think of it; the final words, “Right?” sound so depressing for an ending (this is obviously not the final chapter at all) and I’d probably be like, “…What now…?” if it really did finish like this.
I’m so glad it’s not, though. vuv

Ephishia November 30, 2012, 6:04 AM EST.

Comment ID #233493

Poor Lucy. She’s surrounded by friends who genuinely care about her but is stuck on the one guy who doesn’t want anything to do with her. Why do we always want what we can’t have?

ShadowChris November 30, 2012, 6:54 AM EST.

Comment ID #233494

This comic is still planned to end in 2014, right?

Green B. November 30, 2012, 7:24 AM EST.

Comment ID #233495

Lucy cares a lot for mike is what this chapter is about. This comic is so bittersweet :love: :love:

Blue fox November 30, 2012, 8:27 AM EST.

Comment ID #233496

What a cliffhanger there. If in any case Mike does end up with Sandy or at least leave in pursuit of her, I wish Lucy the best of luck to cope with such a loss. Everyone may be there for her, especially Paulo, but I’m a little skeptical that she would be able to get over it, and if she did, I doubt that it was a swift resolution.

I won’t even ask if Mike foresaw any of this. Probably because he’s got his hands full.

This perspective of Lucy amidst all this chaos, should I say, was interesting. How her mind made out all these details and reacted to the past events; somewhat predictable for someone with her mindset, but was still a treat to read. I’m actually wondering right now what Mike would be thinking about in the midst of this drama. Okay, so maybe it will be half-filled with Sandy, but as for the other that actually includes everyone else, including Lucy is something I’d really want to see.

4y3sec November 30, 2012, 8:40 AM EST.

Comment ID #233497

It is sad to see how that through that denial she couldn’t shake the feeling that she loves him. Realizing that she can’t fight this feeling away, she would have to change for the better. Unfortunately, without realizing it, she has already caused Mike’s tolerance towards her to break down. When she had her revelation she was too late to stop Mike to becoming bitter towards her. A mistake that she didn’t consider the fact that as she tried to fight her feelings for Mike that her conlict had strongly involved him and that Mike would get hurt in the process. In all of this, she couldn’t win and her best friend now hates her. The love she gave in is now bittersweet.

Starkeyblade November 30, 2012, 9:22 AM EST.

Comment ID #233498

Lily got shafted in the sleeping arrangements~

Huh? November 30, 2012, 9:34 AM EST.

Comment ID #233499

I’ve got to say this is far from my favorite chapter. It’s too long and drawn out for what it is.

Anonymous November 30, 2012, 10:11 AM EST.

Comment ID #233500

Shoulda prepared yourself, Lucy. Even you saw it coming.

Rylan November 30, 2012, 11:04 AM EST.

Comment ID #233501

Lucy has a lot of soul searching to do. I truly hope she can find the one guy who will make her happy. The thing is though, the wounds between her and Mike are too fresh. They are going to need time from each other for a little while. Mike is good guy but Lucy should seriously think of finding someone else. (Please don’t flame me but… *gulp*…) I think she should try dating other people for a while. (People outside her social group that does not include Paulo, Agustus, Mike or any other guy she knows closely) Everybody has their own drama they need to work out. It would be a great way for Taeshi to introduce a new character into the BCB universe. Someone who can pick Lucy back up on her feet until she feels better about herself. Think about it, that’s EXACTLY what Abbey did for Daisy when he was introduced to the story. Just use a similar formula for Lucy. Also (just putting it out there) maybe he can be a dog. I know the main protagonists in the story are cats, but we need more MALE dogs characters around besides David 8-D. All the other dog characters are female. What do you all think BCB members? ;)

I tell it like it is November 30, 2012, 12:12 PM EST.

Comment ID #233502

And Zachary’s words continue to echo in Lucy’s mind.

Socially awkward or not, he called it like was…erm, is, as of now O_O

Chocothunda November 30, 2012, 12:16 PM EST.

Comment ID #233503

@Yaschiri:”Oh God and I just thought of when winter break is over for them… can’t imagine what that’ll be like. :/” Just wait for the drama festival that is the play Mad Lucy :unsure:. Whoa, most of my comment was just wiped out, am I not allowed to mention the play?

@Dave: I want Mike to at least say sorry for taking it too far but first he needs to want to apologize and not because his girlfriend asked him to.

@Arkaian: It is a comic we love talking about. Hurray for BCB!

supertails19 November 30, 2012, 1:24 PM EST.

Comment ID #233504

So tired of Lucy bitching
and the fans trying to analyze it like politics
jesus people its just a comic

Arkaian November 30, 2012, 1:30 PM EST.

Comment ID #233505

At least Chirpy is happy…

Locho Lol November 30, 2012, 1:37 PM EST.

Comment ID #233506

@Arkaian If you don’t want over-analysis, you should probably find another comic.

Locho Lol November 30, 2012, 1:38 PM EST.

Comment ID #233507

I dun think Mike and Lucy should be like ‘friends for never’. I honestly think that they’ll be better as friends and the way they’re treating each other is wrong like heck. The whole drama and suspense kills me a lot in this comic, great job Taeshi :love:

jjungpanda November 30, 2012, 1:58 PM EST.

Comment ID #233509

For what happened over summer vacation(right before the talk with Zach and Lucy) makes me want to kick Lily off the bed. I am thinking maybe someone new will come into the picture, maybe some nice guy and will be come friends with Lucy(maybe even more ;)) and Mike probably will get jealous(LOOK at how reacts when she is with other guys) and pissy and try to bring her down. When she is hanging Augustus we see Mike gets made. Why does he care? He has his Perfect Sweet Angel Sandy. I have this gut feeling that Mike doesn’t want her to be happy or secure about herself. Also if Sandy were to say no to him or upset him I think we will have ‘December’ #2. His living around yes women has corrupted him mind that women don’t have brains or backbones and they live to make men happy. Does that kind of make sense to anyone? That when someone does go against with his idea of women he gets pissy see how he treats Lucy compared to the other girls.
Its like payback time! But Lucy didn’t stop Mike from being with Sandy, so why? Did she really make him miserable that he now will make it his goal in life is to ruin her’s? Do worry Mike you only have a few more feet to the finish line.

Someone November 30, 2012, 3:32 PM EST.

Comment ID #233512

The logo is Lucy’s bow and Mike’s scarf! If they don’t get together or at least be friends again then I will be disappoint!

Schmidty November 30, 2012, 5:08 PM EST.

Comment ID #233513

I have this sinking feeling that Lucy’s ‘optimism’ here is just setting her up for an epic heartbreak…

budPuppy November 30, 2012, 5:59 PM EST.

Comment ID #233514


Do you read this comic often? if so, then you should know the fun’s in analyzing the current topic of the page
annnnd Lucy and Mikes disfuntional relationship is intresting to try and predict, especially after getting a peek in the mind of Lucy ;)
0_0 sorry sue

That Chick November 30, 2012, 6:00 PM EST.

Comment ID #233515

you ever read “December”?

We all want them to be friends again.

Thank you for writing this wonderful comic full of drama/suspense and returning to the comic’s main storyline on Monday :)

Someone November 30, 2012, 6:30 PM EST.

Comment ID #233516

now lets hope Monday episode is better

CoolBad November 30, 2012, 7:22 PM EST.

Comment ID #233517

This is a warning she FAILED to heed. And it came back and bit her ***. HARD.

Monas November 30, 2012, 7:50 PM EST.

Comment ID #233521

This is a very hard place for Lucy, personally I want Lucy and Mike together but in my head I know this is very unlikely, the only thing I could end up seeing are Lucy and Paulo but I’m not sure how well that will work out, even if Mike and Lucy got back together I think it would just be awkward and I don’t think she wants to be with anyone else, so unless another character comes in all that I can see in Lucy’s future is being alone :’(

Kleitos November 30, 2012, 11:42 PM EST.

Comment ID #233532

For some reason my instincts are saying we’ll have another intermission. But that’s most likely my paranoia.
I can’t wait for the new chapter.

Hinochi December 1, 2012, 6:25 AM EST.

Comment ID #233537

i still think she took him for granted (and continues to). im guessing this whole chapter was to show otherwise xD

anon December 1, 2012, 10:48 AM EST.

Comment ID #233538

So she just hopes he “gets better” without doing anything herself to help him get better.

wowfood December 1, 2012, 2:23 PM EST.

Comment ID #233539


I'm awful. December 1, 2012, 3:18 PM EST.

Comment ID #233540

You seem to be forgetting about augustus (AKA rape cat).

strider December 1, 2012, 3:27 PM EST.

Comment ID #233541

Augustus thinks Lucy is a b***** though. the only possible way we’ll get an AugustusxLucy ship is if he acts like Mike and treats Lucy like Daisy

@I’m awful.
that’s a very scary ship…
i-i’m afraid now.

That Chick December 1, 2012, 4:04 PM EST.

Comment ID #233542

@That Chick
I pride myself of making ships as scary as possible. Also, new rule, no spaces, because it messes with replies.

I'm_awful. December 1, 2012, 4:57 PM EST.

Comment ID #233543

Its my birthday XD

JustSomeCritic December 1, 2012, 6:14 PM EST.

Comment ID #233548

“Whatever is going on, he will get over it”. Those were Yashys words. I think Lucy knows that that’s not the case anymore. He has his girlfriend and he made it MORE than obvious he DESPISES the very ground she walks on. Even if he did get on his knees and beg for forgiveness he doesn’t deserve it. Yea he had a right not to like her, she was on the abusive side. But to call her a parasite and make out that know one loved her, you all remember he did that right? Well it makes him just as bad as he was accusing her of being. I lost all respect for Mike when he threw all that verbal abuse at her, then expected her to just be all cool about it. The guy showed zero emotion, at least Lucy tried to change her bad habits.

Sammy December 2, 2012, 8:38 AM EST.

Comment ID #233549

This happens before “December” like the rest of us, you’ll have to wait till Monday to see what happens next.

By the way, does anyone remember I think it was the 3rd to last page of “Just Beautiful”, I think Mike has finally come to reality of what his words really did to Lucy.
But then again everyone remember this:
and Lastly this -_-: 2)

I hope something good happens but, I don’t expect peace on earth and good will toward men(and women).

Someone December 2, 2012, 11:22 AM EST.

Comment ID #233550

I just finished reading this entire comics over 2 months and I’m liek…
But I shall be patient.

I love this comic because it represents my life, practially >_>
And I love romance-sad-comedy stories >:3

Favorite character is Lucy because… I’m liek her twin. But I’m more of a twin to Daisy. o3o’…

Parf December 2, 2012, 12:42 PM EST.

Comment ID #233719

can’t help but see the two birds and that pillow as a really said face

Xeyo December 5, 2012, 3:00 AM EST.

Comment ID #233911

You have my sympathies,Lucy.Trying your very best to be careful with the feelings of the one who you care for so much,despite the fact that he doesn’t want anything that has to do with you,yet getting neglected in return.I understand that Mike loves his dear girlfriend so much but why let Lucy carry all the burden herself?Not that I’m saying that she and Mike should just kiss,make up and get together,but seriously,why despise someone who doesn’t even want to hurt you mentally,yet ended up the other way around,in the first place?

BloodyAce December 9, 2012, 1:39 AM EST.

Comment ID #235975

Oh gosh the drama is really pouring on now. It makes me want to go through the whole first part of the story just so I can understand everything to the fullest. Alas, I also want to continue, as I can see I have a very long way to go before I catch up. Funny thing, that. I used to actually LOOK for webcomics like this, and although I still kinda do, I stopped spending my time searching because I had found so many that I liked that I had stopped reading some due to being unable to keep up with all of them at once. But perhaps I can pull another “old me” and spend a full day or two reading a webcomic I like until I have read late into the night so I can catch up as soon as I possibly can… ;)

I'll Eat Yourself January 7, 2013, 2:51 PM EST.

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